不要放弃！

01日09月08年，一，晴。

我在跟grace谈天，说了她跟hwk的问题。
他们出现了问题，搞得我也跟她一起伤心了。
她是好像很开心这样，可是我知道她很在意他的感受。
跟她聊了很多，看来他真的生气她了。
怎样都好，希望他们赶快好回吧！哈哈
我现在什么都没在想，只是帮帮她想要怎么办 ^ ^

01日09月08年，一，晴

01日09月08年，一，晴。

秋 真得很惨，被自己喜欢的人，
好 叫去吃团圆饭。明显不想去的她
还是得去。
就在那一天，婷 要跟 好 分手，
不经意看到的 秋 ，也跟着流泪了。

而当 好 想对 秋 表达心意时，
秋 也刚放弃了他，有更好的对象了。
____________________________

刚刚看到grace的msn，写了h.w.k，
看都知道是那个傻佬，哈哈


昨天妈问我，几时要电直头发，
我想了一想，哈哈。不知道。

好闷啊 ~

１30日08月2008年，阴

他又头痛了，好惨
身体那么虚哦。

刚才永辉 sms我，不懂为什么
总觉得他怪怪的，好像在伤心什么。

那个babi lou，气少我一秒会死的啊
还叫我babi moi 咧。傻佬～

哎呀，那“衰仔”说要ｓｐｙ我的ｂｌｏｇ，
未死过？　哈哈！开玩笑。

今天晚餐，我只吃了１／３的炸鸡，和一碗汤罢了
他还吃鱼翅，羡慕死我了。哈哈
惨了，一点都不饿。哈哈

心还傻傻忘了跳

我的心情就好像今天的天气。。
时亮时灰

有时我真的不明白，某某喜欢我，
而他们就好像逼着我接受他
我明明跟他们说了我不喜欢他
他们就偏偏爱撮合我们
而每一次每一次，我都好想他帮帮我

不说了，不然我又发脾气了。。哈哈

慧 终于放弃他了！
真得很替她高兴~毕竟被“困”了那么久
豪 也对他不理不睬
不喜欢她也不说
慧 放了他也好的，最起码不用无故伤心了
没有他的时候，她的笑容是最甜的！=]

今天好闷啊！根本没事做
忘了他为什么能够让我一步一步走火入魔
突然好想看小叮当哦， 嘿嘿
也突然好想他哦。嘻嘻
我怀念的，是无话不说
连空气都是甜的。。哈哈

每次看他有做功课，准时交上去
我都会有一丝丝的开心
因为我不想他的成绩再跌了
真鸡婆啊我 呵呵

rainy day :D

raining le...so nice^ ^

today i sot sot dei le...keep on laugh hehe
my cousin say i qi jor sin...even my kakak ask me laughing with who
ahhaha cham lo? hehe
[yay eating lamb...wahaha nice nice]
suddenly feel the world so ncie pretty and fantastic xD

same day...again...

in a sad mood le...fast hor ? =.=

i just read my previous posts....

so contrast...

this post..im so so so sad

the next post..i laugh like a soh poh pula

hahas....

i wish i can share my every happiness and sadness with him

i wish i can know his happiness and sadness too

i wish he will tell me his things like what he did last time

i wish he ask me [what happen? (: ] like last time

i wish i can tell him my problems

i wish i can clear his problems too

i wish i can say whateva i want to say like what i did last time

i wish he can crap whateva he wants to crap like last time too~

:))

hee

.......dreaming again le........

my sick getting worse haha !



....

i misss himmmmmm............. !

it's already 9 42p.m...18th bl0g abt him

ergh....again !
why can't i just forget abt him !
hate myself !
4 years le....how can i want forget then forget
i always say want to forget..want to take him out from heart
by the end...
forgot myself...took myself out pula..

~last wednesday i cried in the class
i failed my BM... T____________________T
i never fail it...plus with a low mark some more
i'm so sad......
80/100 is because of the result
the rest....because he seems like nver care about it...
haih...
must work for a better result le ! Dun be lazy ! :D

~these few days seldom chat with him le...
dunno why leh...maybe he forget abt me already
LOLs...
last time...i can just send a stupid message to disturb and start a conversation wth him
today...i just scaring that i'll disturb him and bring him annoyance

~yesterday ..when they're talking abt seng rong and i
i saw him smiling...i hope i can explain to him [we're just fren]
i really want to explain...maybe he dun need that explanation

~he says that i'm affected by wengh [Gg]
i couldn't smile anymore...i hope i can explain to him again..[i'll nt affect by anyone else exp...]

~last last week...BM teacher gone crazy and almost burst because of lisan
she shouted at those ppl who not yet prepared for it
he's one of them...
i saw him angrying...i hope i can ask him nt to do that

~few days of last week...i saw him looking at me while i'm looking at him too
i wanted to see few more seconds..
but i tell myself [dun do tat...u'll make it worse]

~last few weeks...when he got the news that he kena NS
he said that after he go there then can say byebye to bestari already
i dun actually understand that...hahas
just a few small lil tears rolling in my eyes...
wondering how worse is it when we both leave the school
and won't see each other so often

...
everytime he angry of me...i'll be very nervous and scared
i mou guat hei dou sent 2 message to ask him dun angry

...
haha! i still remember last few years...when my oldest cousin marry
at the wedding dinner
i sms with him...if i'm nt wrong i was in form2 that time
half way of the conversation...he sent me a forward message
haha! i can't refrain from laughing plus sweat after a sweet smile
i just remember part of it...
>>Some1 miss u
need u
worry abt u
lonely without u
..
guess who?
the monkey in the zoo<<
sweatsss~ hahaha !

...
dunno this year my birthday will get a present from him anot lehh
he so bad...never buy me a birthday present before but i bought him from F1-3 le
haha...but i dun blame him la...ppl nt close with me also..buy for me meh...haha
miss my little devil~ hahah..long time didn't see him le...haha
thank god i still have my lil daughter :D
AH! i know what name should i give my daughter le...
DD ? hehee....lil Doggy Daughter<< wahaha
finally...

...
suddenly remember the very first time he call me xD
cos i blamed him never call me before...hahah
when he call me...just laugh only...hahas xD i also ikut le
so sad my mum's there that time...just can talk softly and end the call faster
hehee
last few years...forgot which year le...form2 maybe...
april fool...i went midvalley with my sis...i called him and joke with him
hahah [xx...you're so handsome...today...] hahaha!
................cool~~~~~~~~~........................ he just replied [oh] =.=

...
i misss himmmm ................................................. ! T______________________T

无野讲。。

昨日我在msn同佢讲咗短短几分钟。。
感觉完全唔同o西
无咗d开心同兴奋
唔通我哋真的要搞成咁?
今日。。我竟然第一封传给佢o即sms就讲再见
估唔到我可以咁绝情
可能咁佢会开心d。。
今日係国庆日。。同以前一样
都是係一個人过
唔知佢又点哩？

。。。
最近好多野烦，功课退步咗，
感情问题又。。哎
有时真係觉得“佢”唔错o家
总比佢好DD咁啦
但是返到去见到佢，又忍唔住讲一句
“都係佢最好” <又骗自己>
哈哈
乜都好啦
讲过放就放！唔想咁多，读好D书！加油蠢妹！

17th - bl0g abt him

Fri [2008::0829] day
[0850.p.m]

....................................................

this might be the last post abt him

i

don't

think

i

CAN

still

be

so

tough

like

what

i

did

last

time

....................................................

we chat last last night...he never reply...fine
ystd...didn't even explain or tell me that he nvr reply...nvm
today...texted him...never reply also...happy ending
i swear i'll nvr nvr find him again

....................................................

haih...how come so mnay ppl misunderstand seng rong and i
i`m the actual spot light lar...
he that fella only smile smile smile...
remind me of what he did last time!
stupid!
>>> when we're couple...ttn trying to `chase` me...he dare to say good luck to him
never mind lar...
after that....wwh....he dare to say he dun wan to talk to me cos he scare he misunderstand
fine!
then...yky...no energy to say already
i've no more heart to let him break again

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16th - bl0g abt him

Don't take him out le.. 我舍不得。。。。

15th - bl0g abt him

Mon [2008::0825] day
[0735.p.m]
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Today saw him at school..
I didn't glance at him as usual..
I thought i was something wrong.. But actually it's not
I knew that my heart is taking him out day by day
(see my mum scolding ppl already.. =.= going to be deaf)
I don't want to take him out..but i understand
Keep him in my heart, his ignoress will only harm myself
Whole day at school plus classmate geng yin didn't even say a word
Just now..
He say his sis told him abt my blog..and i said him chat with me just to jie men..
I don't know what's wrong with him..
He thought that i'm meaning that.. Explaining to him will just waste my time
Not to say waste my time..but .
He said that he believe i'm not meaning that..
I just realize that..when i'm writing My blog abt him..i'm no more a laughter or a smiler..

14th - bl0g abt him

Sun [2008::0824] day

[0259.p.m]

..................................................................................

haih

yesterday..night..i chat with him

i made a deal yesterday myself

that's if he sms me first that means he

still have the feeling to me

...

...

...

he really do sms me first

but then...i don't think that's not something

to do with my deal

i don't think that he have the feeling yesterday

...

...

...

some hours after

he said :: "bill expensive..paise"

and i thought it all the night

then i realise...he just wanna chat with some1

who're his friend for 4 years!

then i think...should i continue it...or stop it

...

...

...

haih...dun say him le...yesterday

that wengkiat asked me to eat with him

hahas! dou ji kui mou gam hou sei de le

eat with grace still wanna ask me go

sei yeh arhh hahahha

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13th - bl0g abt him

Fri [2008::0822] day

[1016.p.m]

..................................................................................

hahas

i chatting with him now

i can't stop smiling x))

he say his dad cook chop for his couzie

so he can eat also

plus he also like to cook for ppl de

hahahas

或许爱就是这样，让我甘心为你疯狂

i can't make my life without u

when i see u smile.........

hahaS! gone crazy...my god~

hahahas

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12th - bl0g abt him

Fri [2008::0822] day

[0635.p.m]

......................................................................................................

The day before yesterday

He chat with me

I'm so happy that time! hahas

who knows once he know hwa's with me

then he say something like ::

"then stop lar she spy ppl very pro"

...................what the hell................

hurt me again!

Then yesterdayyyy

i chat with him again~ haha!

night chat again~ hahah!!

today chat with him AGAIN~ hahahaha!

but now....

no le..haha~

pity him le...from morning tuition till now...

sure very tired zeh

yesterday night he say bought me a souvenir

plus have story de hahas

make me sam c c...LOLs

i some more accidentally tell him i also bought smth for him

my god~~~

how...lols...cheat him didn't buy or what le

hahas

shouldn't tell him i buy de =.=

see also knw i buy that thing is for couple de le

T____________________T

so suffer! want to give also dun dare...

grr! mou yung!

``~难得注定的缘分~``

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11th - bl0g abt him

Tues [2008::0819] day

[0859.p.m]

.....................................................................................................

He still never reply me....

Yesterday i still comfort myself say that

~``Maybe bla bla``~

but today i asked seng rong....

he say it's possible to send a text or a call

i think i have no more a complete heart now...

it cracks into pieces

and these pieces cannot be stick anymore

怎么说忘就忘记

这甜蜜的过去　被思念包着厚厚的糖衣

不想再为了你伤心　这最冷的夏季

慢慢地　慢慢结成冰

承诺变悲哀　悲哀因我被爱

悲哀是因为你不在

我好想抱着你诉苦　却显得好无助

无助的让人想痛哭

我只想要和你在一起　朝着幸福走去

像恋人般的简单甜蜜

我只想要和你不分离　怎么轻易放弃

我想这一定是报应　都怪我太贪心

才让你头也不回的离去　黄色丝巾是想念　

在树上被风吹　孤单的孤单一个人无法沉睡

爱情怎么会让每颗心都碎　我不再相信你

却又慢慢想起你

．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．

10th - bl0g abt him

Mon [2008::0818] day

[0535.p.m]

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

受够了，不要reply就讲吧

没必要虚伪的说FindYouLater！

我不是你解闷的道具

要找就找。。要走就走

爽就聊久一点，不爽就*拜*也不说

``当你下次要玩伴时，手机按到没电时

情愿你别来找这失势女子``

it's more than enough for me..........

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

9th - bl0g abt him

Mon [2008::0818] day

[1018.a.m]

...........................................................................................................................

Today he going to thailand le....

pig him always wanna slp slp slp and ..slp

hahas!

see...now sure he sleeping! hahas

plus raining...shuang dao him liao lohh~

hehee

Dunno when he back leh hor....

thursday maybe? hahas

:D

haih....still haven't reply...how come he so ~lan fan~ one...

hahas!

sleep till tummy also big le lohhhhhh

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[0427.p.m]

Sei zai bao.....his -findyoulater- late till i forget my own surname

。。。而我对你的期待，被你一次次摔坏。。。

。。。已经碎成太多快要怎么拼凑跟重来。。。

LEE CHONG WEi ~

Sun [2008::0817] day

[0938p.m]

......................................................................................................................

YES! Chong Wei get 2nd! although not winner~

but he's still the best of the best in my heart

^__________________________^

i dun very understand they all de lohhhhhhhh

yes he lose.....so what?!

talk so much go compete urself lar!?

=.=

8th- bl0g abt him

Sun [2008::0817] day

[0817p.m]

...................................................................................................

Wa....first time write 2 bl0g in a day...

hahas

my cousin watching ghost movie...haih =.=

just now went kepong to eat steamboat

we met our old neighbour

i don't really regconize them

omgod....my memory getting bad and bad

hahas!

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uncle him ar..everytime don't say *bye*

not everytime lar..most of the time

hahas! if he does that means something wrong xD

Dunno he busy er...or what...always so mm dak han

Dunno why everytime he find me first

then sms ha macam is i find him first like that

eg::[ME- ..... so boring la .....]

[XX- .... find something to do lo .....]

=.= haih

so mao dun....i saved some of his messages

i wanted to delete many times

but it isn't an easy thing to do...

i tell myself

-how could i delete his messages, that's the prove that we have chatted before-

anything lar~~~^ ^

``````````我无所谓。。我上过信掉过泪``````````

7th - bl0g abt him

Sun [20o8::0817] day

[1330.pm]

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

昨天~学校举行了童子军installation~

在那之前我们必须进行一个烹饪考试。。

煮得都还不错啦~算能吃 xD

只是。。installation plus cooking 这么久的时间

我们一句话都没说

我的心都变成灰色的了

到几时才会便回彩色？

他就是这么欠揍。。

每一次每一次当我觉悟时

他就会找我 =.= 天啊。。

放过我吧。。不要就说嘛。。

算啦。。我明白的^ ^

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

6th - bl0g abt him

Thurs [20o8::0814] day
[0913.pm]

好久没写日记了。。很多人都变了。。很多事都不一样了。。

记得上个月 ：：7月：： 我们都没说话

没有联系，没有互动，谈天就更不用说了吧。。

还是一样抱着少许期望的我，还是一样在不知所措

进和退对我来说也都是一样了。。

~而他。。一次又一次地把我的心弄碎。。

``有一次，眼看送他的锁匙圈 被挂在其他人的铅笔盒上

我那时真得很想送他以吧。。最后，我只是大力的推椅子

- 8月-

这个月跟他的关系好多了 =]

短讯多了，说话多了，眼神多了，笑话多了，感情也好了~哈哈

是我想太多啦 嘻嘻

我已经发了誓。。昨晚再没有希望的话我就放弃！

果然。。就是这样。。

我也很坦白的对他说我喜欢的人是他。。

哈哈！然后我们两个就好像在都斗冷静一样。。

感觉超好笑的~哈哈！

他还说。。有问题一定要跟他说。。

[我心想：：有用吗？嘿嘿]

但今天又好像恢复原状，冷冷的冰又出现在他身上了。。

算啦。。预算之内~^ ^

在学校。。还比自己要若无其事的和他说话。。

算不错了啦~ 嘿嘿