muahahah

yeahh~~~ my new laptop wakakaka xD

reddie~ hahahah

=.="

whole year no mood to go ou already =.="

rojak~ all in one ahha!

( 08 . 03 . 2009 )

Ah dear bring me go gai gai... haha!

the so called "gai gai" = ="

suddenly occur few more HUMAN beings....

hahah so gg.

his flavour lols...i think i spelled it wrongly = =

hyper happy ! ....and hyper lonely =="

yesterday went jusco buy thing for that fella....

lols

1st time dak dang go and buy for some1 =="

hahah

yesterday night his phone suddenly no battery

1st time he never reply...becoz he pressed wrong

= = unable to deliver...ahah

today extra class....

that sui yeh keep touch my hair...= ="

but....hahah like big big man...gg

after that

1st time go restaurant with him = ="

hahah that so called *restaurant* although go pack only

today afternoon slp...dreamt...

suddenly...

1st time call him like that...

long time nvr use that name d = ="

hahaha

just now msn....

keep on see he reply with (=.=) = ="

see dou also =="!

haihz........................................................................................

my angel = ="!

ahahha....ystd me and hwa wee perfomed at bsd club...

before that we need to go hwa wee house (by walk)

who knows aunty say that short cut got ppl da gip her son

scare dao us = = planned to walk the longer road de...

but....hwa wee dun wan cz verty far

then got a good hearted guy fetch us go /gg

= = sei mou...need to acc hwa wee go back her home again

THEN THEN THEN need to go wei yin house again ==

that sha gua heard that...what also didnt say then said

dun let us walk...if i dun call him he will ask hwa wee to call him

waseh...this world still got this kind of guy @@

haha...

although sometimes he really dunno how to tam girl

nyeknyek = =

STUPID!!!!

dun wan reply me mai say byebye la!

dun wan i laugh mai dun laugh la!

i watch doraemon mai watch la!

need u ask me how old ah!? :@ !!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha ~

sha gua ~

lols! =D

SUI YEH!!! slp ald also dun say = =

yer = =" ...true or not oh

haih....that fella...

really dunno what he thinking...

you say i make till u sot sot = =

say like you dint make me sot...

i feel like im siao ppl siao-ing there...

haha! 神经病...

a trap? @ @

haha....he really wear to school le....lols = =

at least he keep his promise...and im like a dumb

believe his promises but at the same time im also

forcing myself don't be too sky true....

haha...told him don't always say those sensetive thing

if not i really kena trap...= =

jk la...hahah let him cheat till i sien ady

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haih = = somebody bad mood again

if....

…I think both of them will be together soon le…

=) and I swear…I’m really blessing them and smile from my heart

although….i know deeply in my heart….couldn’t smile anymore

as long as he is happy with his life…

some more got a so pretty de gf….good hor =P

I know im so fake when writing this…but what to do…

That’s the only thing I can and I should do ! =’( !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so sad....

老友看见我　也会惊讶

平日杯酒不沾　今晚总喝不厌

浅灰色烟圈　浸没了我的脸

宁愿听旧笑话　安慰可免则免

我说我爱你　够份量了吗？

我努力试探你　接受我的真心可以吗？

我太过爱你　你会被我吓怕　不是吗？

怎么你眼里只得她？

多么想知道

最怕其实被取消资格

还不知道　拼命挣扎

如今这算甚么　我是否这么讨厌

只知道付出　以后都不知怎算

最怕其实是输得很远

还不知道　惹人生厌

16 Feb 2009.

Dunno what to say...

many days never talk to him already

saw him bad mood whole day

but talk to siet yen so so so ...happy

see also sad....

yuan lai act like i don't like him is so hard

and suffer.

act laugh. act happy. act siao. act like nothing and walk by him

act like i don't wanna talk to him when he walks by

act like i don't wanna look at him when i'm walking by him

act like i'm feeling nothing when he talks to siet yen
(this one i failed...i yan mm ju look few more seconds)
(sad sendiri few more days)

act act act! i don't like to act!

but what to do....

don't act...he will be pressured...he pressured...

he wouldn't talk to me

he don't talk to me...friend also boh

i hate the feeling when he *looks like hate-ing me

maybe it is not a *looks like...

but....i hate this! what did i do...

what made u change like 1000+ degree..

15 Feb 2009.

真是靠害的！

just now only say ystd dream him

now nap awhile also dream again ==

some more dream what i wish to happen

yet

it is a superb miracle to me...

what is wrong with my brain = ="

simply like to remind me of him

iish !


** In case someday i forgot what i dreamt.

~~> yewjeat, hwawee, jess, stephanie, kinglee, dicky, yogesh, ...

~~> bear suits, lion suits, hotel, hwa wee house, school field

15 Feb 2009.

Yesterday was 20o9 Valentine's Day

lols...it means nothing to me

because there wasn't anything happened ystd

but. road run. aihz. suan liao la.

sayang me de person...fast fast come out !

LOLS...siao kia me

**** Yesterday geng yin dream dou him =="

he wear the shirt which i said not nice...

not ncie also nice d lo now = ="

what am i saying....omgod...............................

let him go ! let him go !

13 Feb 2009.

[Rose From Dear^^]


weee~ TMR IS VALENTINE DAY!! //gg

although it is actually my single day hehehe

but still can celebrate together de ma hor keke

road run~~~ add oil add oil

-do your best...never ever think to stop!-


=)

**At last...still hope i can find some1 who will always sayang me xP

12 Feb 2009.

今天kuannie来载我 @@"

果然，因为yenyau要找老师， 哈哈！

那个大便人竟然写大便给我。。==”

刚刚问他是不是真的不跟我出，那个人！

早早问他，迟迟都不跟我讲答案 ==”。。。

有必要那么快忘记我问了他吗 哈哈！

果然。。就是那个我讨厌的答案。。lols。。

结果就口快快跟hwawee讲要去wk那个church party。。。

其实真的不是很想去。。。都不懂去来做么。。。

其实。。。连oneu我也不是很想去。。。都没情人了，

那里都很闷 ==” 哈哈 现实咧？？

没办法，人就是这样。。。

那个大便人。。一直大便大便，我只是想不到吃什么才会讲吃大便的

你以为我骂你咩。。。 ==”

10 Feb 2009.

Don't Forget to =) !

time ah time....haha kao sai nei la~ assist me...if not how to forget... xP

To My Dear Friend. (=

Don't scare...i really mean Friend...hahaha

09 Feb 2009.

Cupid ah cupid...left 5 days then valentine day lo.....

aim me la~~~ haha ==" stupid me

Cupid ah cupid...where are you...drinking tea? bathing? playing? sleepin?

aim me la........................................... HAHAH!!! siao

Cupid ah cupid........where is your bow?

your fren me so dare go and date ppl leh ==" macam mana....

some more get a not obvious geh reject way @@"

so i m gonna eat dust at home de lar

all keep ask you didnt go out meh = = "

the more they ask . the more times i need to say 'nobody wanna go out with me'

which hurt me so bad = = hahahaha!!!

xx Feb 2009.

so guilty!!! T_____________________________T

they come but i no books to lent them =( !!!

feel so sorry.....

some more my books lost leh! where *u all* go o............................

xx Feb 2009.

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.
When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering howlong you will be around.
When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at allfine.
When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.
When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.
When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.
When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' .... no one in this world can miss you more thanthat.
Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ....
Find a guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
who calls you back when you hang up on him.
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who ... kissesyour forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky heis to have you.
Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

xx Feb 2009.

delete soon gua^^

# zou ji act kena play.gg.
# So gap go where?
# No la.i want know how you think but not that fella ma.haha.
# Okloifilikethisnowyouggle.haha!jk..i very san fu.lol
# Lol.i bath first.don miss me
# Paise just now my phone play hide and seek with me.sorry.haha
# You?how de?da bian zi?haha.you got told him u want cut short hair?
# All finish.gg.okok.today you din ask,so i take home.haha!xP
# Sam ji tou meng la.always cry de a.watch drama also cry,movie cry,listen to song also cry.haha.what day?don tuesday or wednesday.lol
# Wont de la.got long time.but i don feel it nice..haha.quite expensive de..got tilam with a blanket then i can sleep like pig d.haha.
# If you want fetch then i'm free:)haha.cos i play very long le.
# You say you doing moral ma,so i ask you don do till so late.both also got wrong,stop argue.gg.
# Now go late d?Wat's that.haha.ya,tat actually go take disc only de..then she ask me want come down sit not,then mai watch bleach lo.gg.
# Ya.you when want eat.now i can drive.anytime.haha.
# I dunno de wo.you let i choose for you ba.you list.haha.
# Cash..you want eat punch?haha.Then you think dao only let i know ba.gg.
# Fly car la.why cannot?haha.ten min enough le lo,if i remember how to go.haha.
# Her house near school ma.your house i know,just the middle of the journey dunno only.haha.
# Oh.no la.now sent him back d.don worry.haha.why so scare he know?
# You bring happiness to people.god bless you.haha.nothing de la.
# Sorry lo then...Next time free hand la.not that nice only ma.lol
# Still so fu him.guess it yourself.Gg.doing wat
# You cool i cool lo.if not i smile you cool i very fish.haha.
# Adui.wat time?if i free i go watch with you la.

[New to oldddd]

** I nvmd..lol.as long as din cin cai touch me.no straight la.no need worry la.still pretty.Haha
** I go your house bai fang your family first.haha.haven't done yet?
** Why i pay you o?lol.sushi or big apple.say la.lol.i lose.
** Oh.sorry miss un.don angry la.don la.wei don la.hahaha!
** Sorry la.only that time ma.dak dang wear and show you le.see i so good.haha.
** Guai la.^^haha.tomorrow morning wake me up also.can ma?
** I want chan sao give you.haha.got story one.haha.
** Not remember.see the msg only also feel to throw the thing away or give to other person.if use yourself then use..counted..haha.gik die.
** Lol.at my house here la.haha.final already.one gambateh also din heard or see.haha.
** Tell dunno how many thousand times already.haha.got receive play also happy bit ma.
** Everyday i find you.cannot find me one a.lol.i wont say dunno.cos i'm not wong wun mei.haha.
(==" sweatttttt)
** Eh the souvenier you like ma?i find very long and choose very long one a.haha.
** No la.see you cos public speaking la hao la min.so send a msg see can make you smile not lo.lol
** Ui..why so early wake up..faster sleep.Later you getting worse.
** Why last day?if wednesday i pass my undang then thursday you don't go to school.
** Ya.last time watch few episode only.but hao qi you say very man that fella.so watch lo.haha.
** Chatting?msn?i put like gik bit only you will notice it and answer me ma.haha.
** Hahaha!I'll let you take only say la.lol
** Got you go then can choose together ma.Haha.you no transport also.
** Dream you la.lol.jk..so tired no dream.
** Tomorrow morning concourse wait me:)
** Oh...Oh.Let you sek chun again.haha.smart a.not bad.lol
** Ya.pirated is my gao seng.neh i tot can watch dragon ball de.lol.mana tau.
** So late reply ge?my phone sot a?paise..gtg now.sorry.
** Why?they naughty?aiyoyo.haha.
** Okla okla..later say i bully.haha.
** Gg.sw nice meh...today i went there.boring de.kena you lie le.lol
** Waseh..you win lo.lol.fok zoh u.haha.
** Haha.jia u lo.ask your cousins help la.lol
** Nothing juga?din msg with cycle boy?
** Yes sir.haha.but sure nervous bit..test plus uncle.k.o.lol
** Geng le?want i fetch u?haha.
** Not feeling well then rest ba.haha:)
** Eleh..ok lo.know you love him la.chun me la.haha.jk
** No sing a.eat panadol..drink more water..night sleep on fan no air cond..don bath too much.know?un?
** Oh.then nvm la.you get rest la har..get good rest.drink more water la.:)
** Yesterday ok? (this is short...but haha!)
** No la.lol.today let i gong zong le hor?
** No la.find u chat ma.cannot is't.haha.
** Yesterday sleep too early ma.haha.see today you so good ask me.so find you lo.haha.
** ==wati sun bin..you din told me be4 also.after i know then i ask you drink more water..Rest more.dare say no?!Nyek nyek
** U got sent who this msg?
** Want know ma.haha.can?
** Wat yuan lai..lol.ya meh..i saw your hand keep hold..like scare.haha
** Happy new year:)
** I got so ba meh?don choi you also don fetch u la ho?haha
** Wat's up girl.
** One u?with?don say dear..i dunno who.
** Walao..the journey i fetch you back so long also you dunno.haha.mean you really very scare.haha.jk
** Pro le..That time very late wo.pig la you.haha.
** If you dare to touch me only say la.haha.
** Yo.'steamsteam'girl.school reopen soon lo.prepare?
** Which cousin?lol.Scold me la wei.haha.
** No la.not counted.so miss me meh.haha.
** Till9.u ok de ma?Don sad la hor..Still have many choice better than the baka.lol
** Why i feel like it's opposite.anything la..if not ok i can pui u de.
** Why cut?==no need la.like this nice d.lol
** Mean sat min lo?need i pui?lol
** Everyday?! I ok de.i eleven only find u lo.lol
** Agree!can la.bettter than din say.rite?fai si tmr people guat me lo hor?haha
** Oh...izzit?fine.i straight away throw to you.lol.Jk jk.don angry
** That i also know.but also can't get answer.lol.ei.slp.you +u ba.Don do till so late.c u.good9
** Sry late reply.eat medicine.ask you run slowlyma.why you run so fast.haha.

07日02月09年，傍。

如 果 我 说 ， 爱 我 没 有 如 果 ， 错 过 就 过 ， 你 是 不 是 会 难 过 ，
若 “ 如 果 ” 那 来 当 借 口 ， 那 是 不 是 有 一 点 弱 。 。
如 果 我 说 ， 爱 我 没 有 如 果 ， 真 的 爱 我 就 放 手 一 搏 ，
还 想 什 么 还 怕 什 么 。 。
有 人 说 ， 世 界 上 最 遥 远 的 距 离 不 是 生 与 死 ，
而 是 我 就 站 在 你 面 前 你 却 不 知 道 我 爱 你 ，
我 常 说 ， 如 果 连 爱 一 个 人 都 被 自 己 绑 住 ， 那 世 界 末 日 已 来 到 ，
不 需 要 等 到 地 球 毁 灭 掉 的 那 天 ，
如 果 如 果 ， 最 后 变 成 路 过 ， 我 也 不 能 接 受 ，
错 过 错 过 ， 我 比 你 更 难 过 ， 我 不 会 一 错 再 错 ，
这 次 不 要 随 便 错 过 。 。 。

07日02月09年，晴。

ahha~ today 'leng gao' jess ddriving skill le /gg
hahah so funny xD hehe im so bad~ haha but then i fast fast an wei her at secret recipe haha scare she sad hahah

where is that fella....haha
i still can count how long nvr see his name on my phone....
maybe will count until someday i couldn't count at all le =(


hahah! gg le...we found "U-mobile" in fries ~~

06日02月09年，阴。

Friday....ahhah i heard something sad which i shouldn't listen again....hehe = ="

just now let chunlim and khaixiang persuade success haha! skipped tuition hoho(actually im very happy) =D ==

<<~~ Ah pek give de....haha ==" free gift from McD

04日02月09年，晚。

Sei yan tao! Just now talk minutes with qistina abt the donation she also dunno what am i talking.. Ystd ask you collect then you ask others to collect for u.. What the.. Can you be responsible a bit!
And the die human head guy! I did my things lo.. Listen also don listen i say then scold me ady! Damn pressure eh! You think i don want collect it faster meh! Say like i'm so lazy.. That assistant also dunno assisted me what.. Not angry coz she never do things lo.. But can you plss don do smth that make others scold me T___T !!

03日02月09年，雨。

I'm sorry if i misses you too much xD

02日02月09年，阴。

today bai tin gung...hahah =="

that bunny ah...keep kacau want i feed him again =="
mou liu dao...haha san ba san ba one haha

...that fella die already

01日02月09年，晚。

waliao...dunno he baka or i dumb ==" tam him so long also no respond...baka....=="!

31日01月09年，晚。

thx to mr.Ddh & mr.Tkl haha *sunBIn* till very not sun bin fetch me haha

die mou == chun hui

30日01月09年，傍。

thx to Mr.Ddh...haha so good~ fetch me back lols...^^ next time help him wash car == dirty dao.... *NEXT TIME* la....hahahahah! N plus century first la xD

28日01月09年，晚。

just now ate with wk and hwa wee...sei zai...late half hour only gam yun come...
although i should talk more with wk(the old fren) cz seldom meet...but my mind just full of why why why! why he can change 180degree in a week...why he seems like treating me dead...nt wk la of cz ==" dun misund

last few days...dicky tan shi yau said smth make me so hurt...
he keep say *he dun love u de la* for many times...this is extreme small case...i used to it
he say im toy...king lee's toy...he say *kinglee say for free*...DO YOU KNW THIS IS VERY HURT FOR A GIRL!?!?! it same to the meaning as CHEAP....am i...?
喜欢一个人有罪吗？！ wo hen cheap ma? ask him watch movie hen cheap ma?! go his house sun bin fetch me go one u very cheap ma?! didnt ask him come my house fetch me also...do you need to mention *you not his gf* ? as a fren cannot fetch? cannot sit? cannot movie???!
---i know....if boys read this sure think im wu liao...but...this is really hurt pls dicky tan!

some1 ask me pretend ntg...dun show sad or happy face...just cool...i tried very hard to do this...result nt bad...but im sad-ing inside my heart...
i saw he reply hwa wee so polite...i also dunno why i ...

wo jiu shi zhe yang! easily wu hui people...especially him... ==" how come...too sensetive izit? everytime dicky said smth which i dunno is HE SAY IT HIMSELF or dicky create himself...obviously my attitude sure angry the HIM d...because I BELIEVE DICKY!!!! i shouldn't believe him =="

you you you.........................................when only can become like last time.......nt so cool.........nt so cold............not so freeze!?

sometimes when he very very late reply....im not purposely wanna ask him much much request him to reply me....but if you're busy can tell me de ma...dun make me sha sha waiting there all the time....check whether is my phone problem....one minute see the phone one time....actually i just scare i disturb u...cz i knw u easy get angry when u emo...i dun wan u angry me....i dun wan u dun care me....but now....he dun care me at all...his mind sure long time nvr have me...

what he thinking now....can share? i so san fu....i dun wan to pretend....im so tired...mouth keep say i dun care i dun care...who knw my tears rolling in my eyes?

ystd i so -bu guai-...eat maggie curry...cz since he say he like me when i cook maggie curry for him that day then i promised myself cannot eat maggie curry unless he cook for me! stupid hor? yea...i dumb =="...7months didnt eat very geng d...haih...sometimes i hope myself can clever a bit...if he dun like you...dun disturb ppl...

25日01月09年，早。

我到底做了什么来。。。。
我还可以做什么，连约他去看戏那么丢脸都做了。。。。！

24日01月09年，早。

stupid deaf ppl u!! im nt that *dun wan face* lar!! my sis lagi not lo!!



每次跟dicky聊完就觉得我很笨！原来他跟d讲的和我想的完全不一样。。。

23日01月09年，晚。

算了。。。

21日01月09年，雨。

oh.....it's the last day again! lols....wonder how many times i have said this

he really totally no respond + feeling.... good job haha super duper dumb me also can understand very clearly now
im a grass in his heart^^ =="....grass also 不如。。！

有些事情，难道要他说出口才肯死心？？ haha

闭上眼睛还能看见你离去的痕迹，想要对你说的不敢说的爱，会不会有人可以明白。。。
我会发着呆然后忘记你，接着紧紧闭上眼 想着那一天会有人代替，让我不在想念你。。。
又想了一遍你温柔的脸，在我忘记之前。。。
早就不该浪费时间找奇迹。。。我的心已经变得越来越无情了。。。

17日01月09年，晴。

现在总算知道，原来我怎样生气，他都没感觉 ==

12日01月09年，晚。

“ 你上次在我家看的是第xxx集啦！ ”
这句话，想忘记是不可能的事。。。

10日01月09年，晴。

今天，我对他很凶。
我已经搞不清，到底我是在保护自己，伤害他；
还是伤害自己，保户他。

其实也不是特地对他凶的，只是很自然的不想对他假装还可以嬉皮笑脸。

只有昨天，我就已经骂了他“王八蛋”三次！虽然不是他的错，但他既不求证也看似不在意。
真让我火上加火！

怎么搞得，一直被我无视的他因该不及我现在这样心痛吧。。

每次我特地跟其他人玩得巅疯的时候，就会偷瞄他的表情，（好像他会生气一样）地失望着。

本来明明知道他不会reply了，== 该死的手很不听话的按了按 ==
欠揍的自己也是！难道就不能让你的心跟的口一致吗？！难道就不能像刚才那么不爽的说了一句“管他去死！”那么潇洒吗？！
不爽的是很多时候等他回信，要是等很久自己又不高兴，问他干嘛没回信又很犯贱，等到他真的回了又骂不下口！（所以选择只有一个：等到自己不爽），压抑了不少，所以搞得今天有生以来第一次生气他生气得那么成功。==

~


这几天，幸福的stephanie跟她的swingswing真的是甜得让人受不了。（所谓的甜并不是‘反胃’的那种）
当然，幸福是要炫耀的，这位小姐就每天都会讲他怎样对她。哈哈！真是的，像个小傻瓜，明明很开心，却似都不肯说她真的很开心。==
她那位王子真是无可否认的贴心，每天让她开心就不在话下了，
- 她妈妈知道她couple后，他就立刻买了新的电话号码给她；
- 她忘了带铅笔盒，他借了她所有所有的文具；
- 她孤单地一个人用餐，他搞得好像要抓我似的跟我说：她在那里^_^；
- 她打算一个人孤单的等人，他却不介意让他身边的老师知道，可以陪她。。。
太多了，我羡慕的泪真的是可以多到把一个桶装满。==

真是拜托，你们三个别再让我妒忌了 T_____T"

开玩笑啦！哈哈，听她们那么幸福却硬说自己不幸福，虽然很讨人厌，但也很开心他们拿么快就找到自己爱的人！^_^

05日01月09年，晴。

why cant i have a space in his heart.....

can u tell me?

what can i do only he'll believe me again.....

never ignore when i tell him i like him.....

never show me the bu shuang face and turn over his face.....

never act like im invisible.....

never make me misunderstand after making me angry....

never never never hurt me again....

- thx kinglee...you're so nice!

03日01月09年，午。

today went to school for meeting...that ah pek really everyday smile n yam siu de wo...no cure ahaha

now my ah jeh go to find her boyboy....(actually is find his mummy) haha!

good menantu = ="

. yesterday was a miracle .

01日01月09年，傍。

ergh! so hurt when i say that sentence! -why think so far...

= ="

my heart ah my heart....where are you.....died?

Me and da Naughty girl haha~